updates from the special care nursery…1

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just as i got most of my sex education through cosmo mags (they do have very useful, workable tips!!!)…now its parenting/pregnancy mags…i simply can’t resist buying them because they cover most of the things thick encyclopedic parental books cover, plus its 95% less the weight (i carry light…)

can’t wait to shop for baasil -clothes, toys, bathing and skin care, accessories, etc etc…once we get our finance sorted and just to interact with him more…stimulate him…let him grow…trying to find games to get his mind ticking…chess perhaps??? 😛

really am fascinated with baby sign language…will see if it really works…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gSZfW4gVhI

 its been 2 weeks since he was born but we’re still going by his gestation age: 34 weeks…instead of 2 weeks old…would take time to get use to the latter…

this is what baasil should have been doing if he was still inside my tums http://www.babycenter.com.au/pregnancy/fetaldevelopment/34weeks/

1:30pm and 7:30 pm are breast-feeding times with mum (well, at least attempts to do so anyways) whislt the other 3 hourly feeds is still either by tube or by bottle at 40 ml each…i do the cares like changing his nappy, taking his temperature, make sure he’s clean and read up on the 24 hour med reports of what the nursery has been up to with baasil,,.tomorrow we’ll be learning how to bathe baasil because until now he’s just only had rub downs because he has trouble maintaining his temp…

my heart sinks for everytime baasil struggles to suck from me…when he’s hungry and tries to find a teat to suck…because it won’t be till next week that he fully develops sucking skills…and thats inside my stomach…

http://www.babycenter.com.au/baby/prembaby/breastfeeding/

dad wants him out of the tubes because he can’t bear to see his son be “forced-fed” and believes baasil should be automatically sucking the moment he pops out of me…there will be a show-down between him and the peeps at the nursery tomorrow about this…especially with the ëgyptian”medical advice he got a few minutes ago…

dad accused me of not backing him up, abandoning him today when he raised this issue for the millionth time with the nurses and midwives…he wanted the tube out and forget me trying to breastfeed him with the nipple shield because mine was too large and short…and go straight to the bottle…but i and the nurses tried to explain to him that its important he learns how to breastfeed naturally from me because there needs to be a bond between mum and child…that baasil might get confused between the teat and the breast and in doing so lose weight -which would be even harder to get back and maintain, might reject me and therefore hurt my milk supply and body…

if only men knew how sore it is to not express or breastfeed!!!

i did let out a bit of a cry because it was just all too much…i’m already tired with the crazy expressing times barely getting time to sleep, am trying to maintain a “normal” rhythem now that bub’s out and take care of everything…the last thing i need is to have someone make me feel like i’m not a good mother or not being looked after…because i do feel quite vulnerable now…just stressing out about how we’re going to make ends meet…live…

even arranging an arabic interpreter to help ayman voice his frustrations didn’t help because he was so adament that i had turned my back on ayman…

what am i suppose to do with such a person!!!

as in terms of baasil…i really am feeling more and more close to him…

i just love holding him, have him lie on my chest whilst he either sleeps or just unblickingly stares at you with his piercing black eyes…just listening in amazement to your voice like “ahahhhh, its you! who i was hearing for the last 7 months”…

or randomly smiles as he likes when he’s drunkingly sleeping, particularly after a good feed…

i love it when he’s resting inside his cot and im holding and playing with his fingers with my hand and he recipricates as well as grips your finger as if he was doing some weightlifting with my fingers…

when its nappy changing time i take at least a sweating 10 minutes…just to arm myself just in case baasil sprays me with urine and poo like he’s done with all the other nurse and incubators…especially after i’ve fed him…we have to change his linen at least 3 times a day…

when he’s hungry he can either start tugging his hair or grips his feeding tube so hard that it nearly comes out…ahhh baasil baasil! i really do love you…

every day it is a hurdle of what to wear…because most of the time you need a top you can easily lift up and hide your breasts whilst expressing or breastfeeding…because i’m usually wearing bodyshirts to cover the rest of the body my tops not covering it is quite difficult to disrobe…

http://hijabstyle.blogspot.com/2008/07/reham-farouq.html

reham-farouq4

someone should make something breastfeeding-friendly!

i normally do bring another long rectangular hijab with for more cover but its still not enough because baasil can all of a sudden start kicking his legs in the air frantically and there comes there 18e exposure…boys!

2:22am now…nearly time to express (milk)…more updates later…

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~ by nursheikha on April 14, 2009.

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